Tuesday, December 29, 2015

jessica: perception, identity and quiet horror



I sit here and I can't believe that it happened. And yet I have to believe it. Dreams or nightmares? Madness or sanity? I don't know which is which.
--Jessica, “Let’s Scare Jessica to Death”


“Quiet horror” is an extremely useful tool in exploring our perceptions of reality and the borders of what we rather loudly trumpet as sanity or insanity. When quiet horror is successfully combined with the hallucinatory effect of cinema, the effect on the viewer is often disconcerting. This experience, unsettling as it is, can also be revelatory, leading one to question their assumptions about the nature of reality and how we define it individually and as a species. Circumstance and context also play a part, of course. Ask a person about the difference between watching a movie alone and watching it with a group of friends. From the same raw material very different experiences can, and often do, happen. In this piece I will be using the 1971 American independent horror film Let’s Scare Jessica to Death, and my experience with it at two different stages of my life, to explore some of these ideas.

Before discussing the film, we need to assign a definition to the term “quiet horror.”  I’ve seen this term used in many different contexts; broadly, we can start by saying what it is not: visceral, gory, explicit and/or focused on the violation, alteration or decaying of the physical form. It focuses instead on psychological concerns, suspense, and modes of perception. In general, it is a more personal experience of horror. You may not see that someone is struggling to hold on to their sanity; provided you have two eyes that function you can’t help but notice if their throat has been torn out. For the purposes of this piece, let’s define it as an unsettling feeling deriving from experiences that may or may not be paranormal in nature which leads to a questioning of sanity both by the protagonist and those around him/her. We will, time and again, circle around to the nature of perception.

Jessica is recovering from a nervous breakdown that led to her being institutionalized for a period of time. Her husband Duncan has purchased a house out in the country on a farm/apple orchard. Accompanied by their friend Woody, they move out to the house only to discover a drifter named Emily already living there. She offers to move on but Jessica invites her to stay for dinner. After seeing how attracted Woody is to Emily, Jessica invites her to stay indefinitely. At the same time, she begins hearing voices and has a disquieting experience where someone grabs her leg from underwater while she is swimming. A mysterious blonde girl stares at her—a blonde girl no one else sees. She keeps these experiences to herself, afraid that Duncan will think she is losing her mind again.

Is she? The film plays the question brilliantly, the experiences low-key, until a couple of stumbles at the end that muddy the proceedings a touch (which were the fault of the distributor forcing elements into the film, something that was all too common on the indie circuit in this era.) We empathize with Jessica, who is played by Zohra Lampert in a tour-de-force performance that is all the more frightening for its restraint. As the film progresses, with stranger events occurring and a backstory developing about a drowning woman who may or may not have lived at the house, our eyes never leave her. Her physical movements occur with a forced grace, entirely appropriate for one recovering from a breakdown. Duncan, Woody and Emily are malevolent characters, but the movie refuses to reveal whether that is solely because Jessica perceives them that way or whether they do, indeed, intend her harm. Either way, Jessica’s conception of reality is challenged at every step of the way. The film is suffused with an emotional and sexual tension that simmers beneath every ambiguous word and look.

I first encountered this film around the age of 6 or 7 on afternoon TV (the lack of graphic violence made Jessica an afternoon TV staple in the late seventies.) Too young to understand any of the subtext and most of the complexity, I was instead very frightened by the idea that one could lose their mind—or, worse, that the world around them was something other than it appeared to be. Around the same time I recall watching footage of the Jonestown massacre, which I consider my first experience with “evil” as a concept. Both experiences affected me deeply, and along with viewings of Night Gallery, In Search Of… and the film Burnt Offerings, likely put me on the path towards the horror/weird genre in literature and cinema that has been a staple of my life (creatively and as a fan) since. Jessica was the first time I became aware of identity as a concept. The naturalistic tone of Jessica, with its soft diffused lighting and frequent scenes in daylight (unlike most “horror” movies, this one rarely takes place in the dark) make the fragility of Jessica and the crumbling of her mental state more real than cinema normally allows. It got under my skin and scared me in a way I could barely understand, yet fascinated me as well. It’s fair to say that from day one I saw horror as more than a place to explore extremes and transgressions; I saw it as a fundamental tool for exploring the concept of self and how reality is perceived and defined.

Of course I had no understanding of the term “quiet horror” at that age, but I did when I watched the movie for a second time as an adult a couple of years ago. In the intervening years my interest in the horror and exploitation cinema of 70s/80s grew into a lifelong fascination, if not almost obsession at times. All the differing branches of horror, itself a very fluid term, hold varying degrees of fascination but as far as cinema goes, quiet horror is the deepest well for me. (I find it more problematic as a term in literature, though there are many quiet horror stories and novels I’d recommend unreservedly.) It’s always chancy to revisit a film that made such an impression at a young age, but not only was Jessica no less disquieting for all my adult understanding of what it was trying to do, the question of identity seemed even more prevalent. I experienced a breakdown as a teenager, and there is also a strain of mental instability in my family history. Jessica’s concerns have never been far from home.

There is more to Jessica than the concerns of reality, identity and sanity. For instance, the movie captures the post-Manson mood of a destabilized America where the old were afraid of the young and the young were afraid of each other. In the post-9/11 world, where American fear and paranoia is constantly directed outward at The Other, Jessica provides a snapshot of a time where that same paranoia was directed inward at each other (it could be argued that it still is, to some degree, since America currently sees boogeymen everywhere, from under the bed to overseas, perhaps an inevitable consequence of globalism—but in the early 70s the scope was arguably much narrower.) This era led to perhaps the only period of reflection and inward-searching America has experienced as a society—this is more common in European society, for example. The saber-rattling began once again in the Reagan era and has essentially continued nonstop since, the media spin the only real difference. But that is a whole ‘nother conversation and not relevant to this piece. Essentially what I’m saying is that, as a window into a particular era, Jessica captures a societal mood that is so very different to what we live in today as to seem downright alien. One gets a nostalgic, even wistful, feeling viewing the film now. We no longer have time to have a breakdown and move to the country to sort it out—the noise will still be there, 24/7. And if you don’t like your current identity, discard it and put on another. The fake is real and the real is fake.

Quiet horror has a harder time of it in such a noisy, fragmented world. Yet I think well-drawn character studies will always have their place as a valid arena for exploring personal, intimate concerns. And there is nothing more intimate than perception: it is how we steer our everyday lives. (Dreams are a different matter.) Being able to confront the questions and limits of perception, while disquieting and often scary, can be a transformative experience. Jessica’s refusal to tie everything up in neat bows gives it a staying power that allows it to still function as a vehicle to explore these concerns, all of these years later. Not bad for a low-budget indie film.


Monday, December 28, 2015

identity

The fear is not that I'll go stark raving insane, screaming at the walls like a straight-jacketed nutso in a cheesy thriller. No, what I fear is a quiet breakdown, where I am gradually overwhelmed by the absurdity that comes from being alive, knowing I will one day be dead, and knowing that I know virtually nothing. The fear that this construct we call reality is false, that it is the paper-thin mask over the cosmic boogeyman. I will not be clawing at the walls; the loss of my sanity will feel warm inside my skull, a physical sensation not unlike eating a steaming hot bowl of soup on a cold winter afternoon. An almost pleasant feeling as the fabric of reality is torn from me. (In my youth I had a breakdown that was exactly like this.)

Most of this time this fear, like all reoccurring fears, does not rear its head in my daily life. In my most spiritual moments it recedes entirely from view as a certain cosmic viewpoint (one that, I must note, includes all the chaos and destruction inherent in the cosmos) establishes itself in my mind through my experience in those moments. This viewpoint brings such a great sense of awe and wonder that worries about sanity seem trifling at best. The boogeyman? Bring him on! He's nothing next to the indifferent (as far as human concerns, that is) cosmic forces. I find this strangely comforting. If an asteroid hits us, so be it. Worries about the nature of reality are irrelevant. Experience every moment as it is.

Right? But my moment is not your moment and my sense of identity is not the same as your sense of my identity. It could be argued that at least one definition of love is trying to connect across these vast gulfs...or at least put them in their proper perspective. As to who or what decides that proper perspective is...

Boundaries, identity. Artificial or natural constructs? Does it matter? (That's really what all art can ultimately be broken down to: does it matter?) Loaded, unanswerable question, that. Yet to not try and do so negates the experience of being alive and all this weird shit that make up "reality".

Cinema in general, and horror cinema in particular, is an excellent medium for exploring the disassociation of identity and the erasure of boundaries. The camera cannot help but lie; it is not an impartial observer. As much is told by what is left out as by what is shown. Low-budget films, particularly those of the seventies often as not shot on scraps of film stock whose quality could at best be called erratic, capture an unease with existence that can trip the breaker in the brain's coping mechanism. This may be accidental and arguably carries even more force when it is. A filmmaker wants to hurt me? Fine, I can meet him on those terms--we know our identities. An indifferent filmmaker, shooting quick and hoping to turn a quick buck on the exploitation circuit, is far more dangerous. He doesn't have time to think about his work; he just does it and the energies he unleashes are unconscious. As such, they often better capture the temperature of the culture from which they emerge than more accomplished, considered works.

I have more to say about this...

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

2015 books read and a few thoughts



Last year I put a list of books read together along with some random thoughts, and I enjoyed it. So I’m doing it again this year. Enjoy!

The Norse Myths, by Kevin Crossley-Holland
The Fog, by James Herbert
Girl in a Band, by Kim Gordon
Europe Central, by William T. Vollman
Get in Trouble: Stories, by Kelly Link
Your Fathers, Where Are They? And the Prophets, Do They Live Forever? by Dave Eggers
Birth School Metallica Death and Into the Black by Paul Brannigan and Ian Winwood
The Weird, compiled by Jeff and Ann VanderMeer
Giallo Fantastique, edited by Ross E. Lockhart
Sevenevens, by Neal Stephenson
Finders Keepers, by Stephen King
Find Me, by Laura Van Den Berg
How to be a Man (and other illusions), by Duff McKagan
Going Clear: Scientology, Hollywood and the Prison of Belief, by Lawrence Wright
Ten Little Indians, by Sherman Alexie
Occultation, by Laird Barron (re-read)
The Hour of the Oxrun Dead, by Charles L. Grant
The Howling, by Gary Brandner
The Hunger and Other Stories, by Charles Beaumont
The Two Pennies, by Susie Millar
Into Thin Air, by Jon Krakauer
Phantom, by Thomas Tessier
Making Sense of the Troubles, by David McKittrick and David McVea
Live from New York, by Tom Shales and James Andrew Miller
The Graves are Walking: The History of the Great Irish Famine, by John Kelly
Wicked Things, by Thomas Tessier
After the Quake, by Haruki Murakami
Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and his Years of Pilgrimage, by Haruki Murakami
Scarce Resources: 18 Weird Tales by Brendan Detzner
The Best Horror of the Year Volume Seven, edited by Ellen Datlow
The Sick Bag Song, by Nick Cave
The Great and Secret Show, by Clive Barker (re-read)
Songs of a Dead Dreamer and Grimscribe, by Thomas Ligotti (re-read)
Murderous Passions: The Delirious Cinema of Jesus Franco, by Stephen Thrower with Julian Grainger
The Bazaar of Bad Dreams, by Stephen King
Your Band Sucks: What I Saw at Indie Rock’s Failed Revolution (But Can No Longer Hear), by Jon Fine
L.A. Confidential, by James Ellroy
Light in August, by William Faulkner
Van Halen Rising: How a Southern Californian Backyard Party Band Saved Heavy Metal, by Greg Renoff

Let’s start with the book that impacted me the most: Seveneves by Neal Stephenson. I could not stop thinking about this book when I read it, replaying it in my head every night as I fell asleep. I can honestly say that no other book has fired up my mind in the last decade like this one. I’m not sure that it tops Anathem, especially given that the final third of the book can’t compare to the first two-thirds, but what a thought-provoking, exhilarating read. I can’t believe people go through life without knowing the joy reading a book like this can bring…Going Clear was a different kind of sci-fi, one infinitely more disturbing. I wanted to understand the appeal of Scientology and instead I find its continued existence even more mystifying. It’s a Hollywood thing, I guess. Expertly researched and a certainly a fascinating read, the documentary of the same name that came out this year is well worth your time too…

I am as thrilled as any Stephen King devotee can be that he still cranks out several books a year. This year wasn’t one of his better ones, though. Finders Keepers features some of the same characters as Mr. Mercedes (itself no great shakes) and the most absurd plot I’ve read for some time. King’s readability makes it a breezy enough read but there’s nothing special here (and I’m not the only fan who is mystified as to why King enjoys these characters enough to give them more than one book; they are, frankly, pretty dull.) The Bazaar of Bad Dreams was a difficult read for me: 1)The best story by far, “Morality,” was previously published in Blockade Billy, which was also included in this collection and seems like a ploy to pad out the book; 2)Stephen King read a bunch of Raymond Carver and then wrote a story like Raymond Carver, and despite the fact these are 2 of my 3 favorite authors of all time, it didn’t work; 3)the stories more often than not felt…incomplete, somehow. Like they were closer to sketches than complete works. That said, there was one element to this collection I found fascinating and compelling: King was upfront about wrestling with his own mortality. Honestly, his intros were often better than the stories themselves. Look, I realize it sounds like I just trashed this book, but if you are a fan, you should read it. King’s worst is still better than most writer’s best, and the comforting familiarity of his voice can’t be denied. I am proud to be a Constant Reader…

Old-school horror, you say? How about The Fog? Great fun, pure pulp, they don’t make ‘em like this anymore. Dated, but if you love late 70s pulp horror, it’s a treat…I have long meant to get around to reading The Hour of the Oxrun Dead, ironically this quiet tale became the first book I ever read on a Kindle. I found it enjoyable if slight; I appreciate quiet horror but this one occasionally veered towards somnambulistic…I finally read another author I was long overdue to explore, Charles Beaumont, while on a bus in Ireland. The very 1950s American tales were so out of place in this setting that they became timeless. The Hunger and Other Stories is essential reading for any fan of the genre; you can definitely still feel its influence on modern, realistic horror and the best tales still pack a punch…The Howling wasn’t very good but at least it was short and better than the movie, which I’ve always found awful (make-up effects aside.)…Last on my list of “finally read them!” authors this year was Thomas Tessier. Phantom I also read in Ireland and enjoyed it, though it ended with more of a whimper than a bang. Wicked Things, however, didn’t work for me at all. I’d still like to check out more of his work; he’s clearly a talented writer…

You know what book reset my expectations of what an anthology could do? The Weird. I am just astounded at what the VanderMeers pulled off, and I could not have more admiration for their accomplishment. The essential anthology of short weird fiction, I might quibble with an occasional inclusion or omission, but these are so minor as to not be worth mentioning. I consider myself well-read in the genre, and I discovered tales here I’d never heard of. Just a treasure and it belongs on your shelf so go get it right now…Giallo Fantastique was the other anthology that rocked my world this year. Focused more on the fantastic than the mystery/police procedural of most giallo films (a passion of mine), several stories in here were among the single best pieces I read this year. Go buy this book now and support small presses!...

I consider Kelly Link’s Magic for Beginners and Stranger Things Happen two of the best short story collections of the past 20 years (and two of my all-time favorites), so my expectations were pretty high for Get in Trouble. And it didn’t quite deliver; she’s pushing herself as a writer but the tales don’t hold together as strongly as her past work. Probably more a transitional collection, she still drops lines that make you want to stop writing forever, they are so damned perfect. Flawed genius is the only interesting genius, anyway…I know I read Occultation when it first came out but I finally bought a copy this year and whereas the first time I read it the book didn't really sink in, this time it did and I wondered what the hell I was thinking before. It’s a great collection from one of the very best writers working in horror; what more needs to be said?...On the subject of re-reads, if you are interested in horror and haven’t read Thomas Ligotti, you’d better correct that now. The Penguin Classics (!) reissue of Songs of a Dead Dreamer and Grimscribe is a good starting point. From there make sure to search out his story “Purity”, still my favorite Ligotti—oh, and read everything else he has written as well…I’m going to come out and say it: Clive Barker is not a great novelist. Re-reading The Great and Secret Show this year I was astounded that I had completely forgotten everything about it since reading it in high school, but it rapidly became clear that it was due to the fact that the book doesn’t quite work. The ideas behind it are intriguing, but the characters are very flat and uninteresting. I will forever stand by The Books of Blood and the first two Hellraiser movies, but I’m finding much of his other work either hasn’t aged well or didn’t work in the first place. I don’t want to end this paragraph on a bum note so I’ll tell you instead to go buy Brendan Detzner’s Scarce Tales and enjoy the perfect antidote to overbearing pretentious weird tales while supporting an intriguing writer beginning to find his voice. Short, surreal and frequently hilarious, these stories are gems. He has a new collection out that I’m looking forward to…

Europe Central is the type of book that is rapidly disappearing: bold, ambitious, literary, demanding your concentration and shooting for the stars. Populated with real-life historical figures, its scope is vast as it wrestles with the soul of Germany and Russia in WWII and the idea of Europe Central. I’m not sure who reads novels like this anymore; it belongs to an era where a major work of fiction held a lot more cultural cachet. But I’m thankful it exists and I discovered it, a robust ghost cutting through our short-attention span era…If I had to explain what it is like watching America tear itself apart and chew its tail off in the post-9/11 world, I’d simply have them read Your Fathers, Where Are They? And the Prophets, Do They Live Forever? When someone uses the term “literature” I think of a book like this; it engages on levels beyond mere storytelling (though it does that quite well too.) I think you could get a sense of the fragmented, paranoid American identity better from this book than any work of non-fiction…Light in August is, for Faulkner, approachable. I love his ear for syntax…After the Quake is the first collection of Murakami’s short fiction I’ve read. One of my favorite authors, the story “Landscape with Flatiron” is easily one of my favorites I’ve read in the last ten years…

I spent two weeks in Ireland this year, and three of the books on this list are a direct result of this trip. The Two Pennies was written by my tour guide and I won’t pretend to have an objective opinion about it; it will forever be part of the trip…The Graves are Walking, which I purchased in an Irish bookstore, provides a good overview of the potato famine but the tone is weirdly uneven for a non-fiction book, almost snarky at times…Making Sense of The Troubles was recommended by my tour guide (who grew up in Belfast and also spent time as a reporter covering The Troubles) and I found it to be an excellent, necessarily broad overview of a complex situation. The authors are upfront about this, and as such it is a good place to start if you want the overall picture. Having walked through the site of Bloody Sunday, an experience that affected me deeply, I want to delve even further into this tragic period of Irish history…

Wrapping this up, I don’t have much to say about the music books. If you’re a fan, they are interesting, if you’re not, they won’t be. The exception is Van Halen Rising, which captures the feeling of a very specific and long-gone era. At least we still have the music.