Monday, April 25, 2016

Well Buk



Well Buk
Things aren’t going so well
Almost ready to pull some of your books down from the shelf
Well Buk
Things aren’t going so well
And here I am writing a poem
The more things change…
Bullshit, you’d say
And you’d be right
Buk, I’m sitting here in a house I might not be able to continue to afford
(You’d laugh, O you’d laugh!)
I’m thinking of that late spring night in Spokane
In that shitty apartment with the shitty roommate
I was drinking Boone’s Farm, strawberry I think
And the shitty roommate told me to turn on the radio
He’d entered my name in a drawing because he’d already entered himself earlier
So I did
And the DJ said my name
I’d won $50 without doing anything
Mentally I was already converting that $50 to Boone’s and Lucky Strikes
When the DJ said as a winner I was now entered in a grand prize drawing
Big deal, I thought
But damned if I didn’t win that grand prize a few days later
A thousand bucks
Used it to get out of Spokane and start this life
Went from Boone’s Farm to wine with corks and gave up the smokes eventually
You woulda laughed, o you woulda laughed!
Well Buk I quit writing for a few years there but started up again
Stories this time, rarely poems
Been doing it for over a decade now
Nothing like what I wrote in those Spokane days
When the ghosts in my haunted head were much more interesting
And I could feel the vastness of the stars
I still feel that vastness, sometimes
The Grim Reaper touch isn’t that far away, probably
Which is why I think it was probably dumb to give up the smokes
Win some, lose some I guess
But I tell you Buk
Spokane was some fucked-up shit for sure
Yet I miss the realness of it
Everything seems so vague now
Guess that’s what they call maturity
I miss the lover’s touch and the fire of mind
Don’t really miss the Boone’s Farm, though, or the shitty roommate
Call it a draw, then
This is an old man poem, Buk
A looking-back poem
I thought I was an old man then
I guess we all feel old, all the time
I wrote a story last month, Buk
Pretty decent one I thought
Got all ready to submit it
And realized it didn’t have a happy ending and the kid didn’t live
So there’s no market for it
That’s how it is now, Buk
Happy endings are good
Weird endings are ok
Bleak endings don’t have a market
The kid in Cujo would make it today
And no one reads poetry
Shit Buk, maybe I’m not doing so well
But I’m still writing
This poem is in longhand, even (like those old Spokane days)
My handwriting is terrible but at least I don’t have the shakes
I curbed my excesses, Buk
Decided I wanted to live after all
So I can’t complain
But I tell ya, Buk
I really miss the smokes.


--4/25/16

Sunday, April 17, 2016

looking at the latter-day Stephen King bibliography



I am a Constant Reader. I have been since that fateful day in fifth grade when I descended into the dark basement of the town library where all the fiction was shelved and selected a hardback book from the dusty shelves, the jacket of which with its bold letters and screaming, open-mouthed skull simply looked to me like the greatest thing ever. The novel was Christine, and that afternoon I took it home and read it in one sitting (actually one lying down) on my grandparents couch. From that day onward Stephen King was one of my favorite writers, and any other writers who hold that title have been in my life a shorter period. From that first reading of Christine to finishing a re-read of Everything’s Eventual last night, King has been a constant (heh) presence in my literary life. I read every new book as it comes out, re-read at least one novel a year, and re-read some of his short stories several times a year. Yeah, I’m a Constant Reader.

For some completely random reason, while driving to work this morning I started thinking about King’s latter-day output. If you like King, your favorite works (most likely encountered in your youth) were probably written in the 70s or 80s. Maybe you stopped following him in the 90s (I honestly did for a while, though I continued to re-read the older works.) Maybe you came back to him in the 00s, or maybe you didn’t. His books are still everywhere, but certainly not as ubiquitous as they were in the 80s. While the last ten years have seen King acknowledged as one of the greats (regardless of genre) and his books quite often get favorable reviews now, I have a feeling that, in some ways, the actual works are flying a bit under the radar. Or put another way: what is a King book in 2016? A tale well told, certainly, but do you compare everything with the towering achievements earlier in his career? Do you come to it as comfort food, so familiar with his tics that you don’t even notice if he experiments, pushes himself as a writer? Is he too prolific?

I’m not going to pretend to answer these questions, most of which are subjective and don’t have a real answer anyway. What I want to do is look at the last 11 years of his work and shoot the shit about it. See, you can do all kind of rigorous academic analysis on King if you want but that just seems so at odds with what his work is and what it represents to me as a reader. Fortunately, I’m incapable of that kind of writing. (This will become obvious.) This post is just going to be me rambling on about the works covering 2005-2015. I’d guess I’d have a lot to say about some of ‘em and not a lot about others. I chose 11 years as a cutoff because The Dark Tower series “ended” (The Wind through the Keyhole aside) in 2004 with the publication of the seventh book and it seemed to me that, with that millstone finally off from around his neck, King felt free to once again just write whatever he wanted. Also, I didn’t want to have to discuss The Dark Tower series. As a Constant Reader, I certainly have opinions, but any discussion of said monolith would be as long as the series itself and not as fun. This is supposed to be fun—we are just having a couple of beers, there’s some background noise in the bar, and neither the fate of the world nor our academic careers hang in balance. Anyway, here we go.

The Colorado Kid (2005)
What an odd title to start with! This book is a slight (184 pages) crime novel published exclusively in paperback by Hard Case Crime, a great little publisher that specializes in hardboiled noir crime fiction by overlooked/forgotten pulp writers as well as a smattering of newer authors. It probably reads less like King than almost any other novel of his I’ve read. This must be one of the great things about being successful on the level he is: you can do a project like this without worrying about any repercussions, financial or critical. And you can use your name to bring attention to a worthy, less mainstream publisher.

But does the book work? Slight is the word I keep coming back to. King is generally incapable of poor characterization and that is what carries the book. The plot is thin and secondary. I can’t say that the pace is brisk despite the novel’s brevity. I think it is really for hardcore Constant Readers only, or for those curious to see King write in a different genre. It is the polar opposite of The Dark Tower and if anything proves that King is capable of going outside the box and leveraging new tools.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

taking stock



Too many projects or not enough? Until this year, my routine has been to focus on one story through two drafts or until it was clear to me it wasn't working, then on to the next story. I rarely worked on multiple pieces at once, though I was and still am not averse to jotting down occasional notes/lines. If they speak to me strongly enough, they'll hang around until I get to them.

Having decided to submit some of my work this year, the whole process has changed. First, I do not believe any of my work is near publishable after two drafts. So anything I think I might want to submit needs intensive rewriting. Which is necessary and fine, but it also means I'm working on stories I've already told and the new ones still want to be heard. So I've tried to carve some time for those as well. The net result is I've probably written more on a pure volume scale than at any time since I drafted my last (terrible!) novel a decade ago. 

Every day I question the value of my work. I've had one story in circulation since February; three rejections and that's fine. (I will be the most shocked person in the world if anything I write gets accepted somewhere.) The more important question is what am I learning from the process; am I becoming a better writer? One would hope so. I don't mind submitting my work and I don't mind going through the oftentimes hell of rewrites. It's the time spent looking for markets that I find exhausting. Most of the markets I've found are way out of my league, and the more appropriate ones are overloaded. But I go after the appropriate ones anyway. I imagine building a list over time will alleviate the problem somewhat. 

The new stuff I've worked on this year, perhaps as a result of revisiting my old stuff, is not like any of my prior work. The bulk of it, for starters, doesn't even really fit in the weird/horror category where most of my stories live. Perhaps it will as it mutates (heh) but I don't think so. This writing seems to be serving two functions for me: a)helping me creatively deal with a life that has been, truthfully, rather difficult for a while and looks to continue to be for the near future and b)bringing me back to the joy I got out of writing before feeling like it had to have a purpose beyond simply creating. 

I'll be honest: at least once I day I want to burn everything I've written. At least once I day I hate my mind and myself. At least once a day I want to run away from everything. It's easier to shine if you're standing in a dimmer light, no? I figure the doubt about the validity of the work just comes with territory. I know I'm not all that talented. And maybe that's why I pushed myself to submit work this year--not for validation (seriously, the validation has to first come from yourself--everything is else is frosting on the cake), but to ensure I'm still growing as a writer. It is not a craft you master: it's a craft you continually learn, and if you plug your ears...well, your deafness will be reflected in the work.
So I plug away, like every writer ever. I'm not much given to illusions, and these days I'm not much given to dreams. But I've got these stories I'd like to tell...